I suppose I'm a bit of an idiot

I suppose I'm a bit of an idiot. I have this impression that maybe girls might like me, or that they may be interested in me.

And then for whatever reason, every time I realize that this is a lie, I get disappointed, yet again. And yet for some reason I keep trying to fool myself into breaking this cycle. I don't want a girlfriend, or even a hot date or anything. I just want to feel like a girl is interested in me. Somebody who I'm interested in too. Somebody who I could feel chemistry with.

But, unfortunately I'm an idiot instead.